Tuesday, July 28, 2009

random blurb...when I should be studying

Okay so as I said in my intro to me I recently got admitted to the UW which I will admit was a big shock. Not because I didn't work my ass off but because my college GPA is not top notch due to some mishaps during my running start days. So anyway I am unfortunately the type of person who worries until the end, so I keep thinking "Oh God, they're going to change their mind before I get to register" and the worse part is I am taking classes this summer and I have a mid term on thursday and an english paper I need to finish but I can't focus! probably doesn't help that my house is hot as hell and I have a two year old running round being mischevious....Well anyway here's a random thought went to the Dr. yesterday and found out that I may be bi polar. I kinda figured it though cuz I've had depression for years and just recently took the step to talk to my dr. about it so I been taking a low dose of Zoloft but its not working, and honestly I've actually been feeling like my mood swings are more drastic, which sucks. But I do have to give myself props cuz I've never taken a quarter off of school, barely have anyone watch my babies, still hold down my house, and my marriage ain't at all suffering, but I must say that I am getting tired of being strong....

The Beginning

So since I was a small child I have been a fan of writing. I used to write short stories, poetry, songs, and my diary stayed full but as an adult the time I've allotted for expressing myself through written words started to dwindle. Every year it seemed as if I was bottling more of my emotions in fear of someone finding my writings and judging me.I have always been a heavily guarded person, refusing to be completely open with anyone in fear of being hurt. Now that I have children it seems I realize that I need to free myself or I will go insane! SOOO I've decided to start this blog as a way to document my life experiences and opening myself up to anyone who dares to listen, or shall I say read about me.

This is the beginning of an adventure, hope you all are ready!